Lil Bit of This~Lil Bit OF that

Most people focus on the big picture, not realizing that the big picture is compirsed of an almost infinite amount of small components. Pay Attention to small detail, and see if it wont make the big picture more clear and meaningful.

The Finish Line......

Keep your eye on the prize

The Final Stretch

I'm happy to say that i am weeks away from the start of my last semester :-).

GrAd SkOoL

Its been a long time coming; 8 years to be exact. My educational journey has been more than just interesting. I have attended 3 different institutions of higher learning and have changed my major 3 different times in the process. I cant say that I regret any of the choices that I have made up to this point. I mean, i have made some pretty dumb decisions that have ultimately altered my life course; i regret none of them. My life is like a journey of education and enlightenment; as soon as i learn a lesson about my self and the cruel world i live in, another lesson is waiting for me. I currently find myself in an awkward position. Should i pursue the dual masters program, or should i pursue my doctorate? Both programs have their benefits and both are great roads to success and bliss but which path will make me happier? That is the point of life right? Pursuing Gods face and happiness? There is a lot to think about, and my time is running out.

I have a friend who sometimes i contact for help. Most of the time i think she hates me due to our past experiences, but overall i think she is a great person and i love her to death. She may be one of the few people on this earth that "GETS" me (side note, :-) i love how she plays with me). Our relationship reminds me of the young Simba and Nala, very playful and fun. I asked her, "woman, how did you decide to go to [unspecified]? was it hard? what did you think about?" her response was "I didn't think, i just did it, MAN". In many ways i am envious of her ability to Do. She was able to make her mind up on what she wanted and then pursued her goal. I love her for that. 

One day i will look back on my educational choice, that i have yet to make, and i will be satisfied with the route that i took, until then i guess i will just sit back and enjoy the journey to enlightenment!!! 

If It Kills Me

If It Kills Me"

Hello, tell me you know Yeah, you figured me out Something gave it away It would be such a beautiful moment To see the look on your face To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishfulthinking You know nothing Wellyou and I Why, we go carrying on for hours on end We get along much better Than you and your boyfriend

[Chorus:] WellallI reallywannado isloveyou A kind much closer than friends use But I stillcan'tsayitafterallwe'vebeenthrough And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me If it killsme

How long, can I go on likethis, Wishing to kissyou, Before I rightly explode? ThisdoublelifeI lead isn'thealthy forme In fact it makes me nervous If I get caught I could be risking it all

Cause maybe there's a lot that I miss In case I'm wrong

[Chorus]

If I should be so bold I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand I'd tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I reallywannado isloveyou A kind much closer than friends use But I stillcan'tsayitafterallwe'vebeenthrough And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me If it killsme If it killsme I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me Yeah, the feeling inside keeps building I'll find a way to you if it kills me If it killsme It might killme

Technology

I love technology. I'm intrigued with it in every kind of way. I love reading the updates on new gadgets coming out, and occasionally I indulge myself with a treat every now and then. Although I love technology, I could never replace it with the warmth and companionship of human interaction. In my opinion, there is nothing better than an intelligent in depth conversation of any particular subject. I love the idea of new view points of the world; I enjoy learning new things. I often ask people to teach me something about them or about the things that interest them, but most of the time people look at me like I'm weird. I think in order to capture my heart and keep my attention, a girl will have to capture my mind and expand my psych.